Learning from my mistakes.

Hello again, that’s three blog posts in one week! Are you proud of me or what?! So, today was a good day for me, I went to the mall after so long! I needed to go because I have three gift cards from two years ago and I’m afraid they’ll tell me that I won’t be able to use it because the cards have expired, however I don’t know if gift cards ever do expire, do you know? Darn it, I should have asked them! So I walked around for three hours and came out with absolutely nothing! By the way, I’m feeling much better from the infection, although I do have a little, teeny, tiny bit of a stomach pain and I’m trying my best to ignore it. So yes, I came out with nothing after walking around the mall for three whole hours, I was mad but kind of not, I guess I was just content that I got to leave my house because I was inside those four walls for too long. It was a nice atmosphere at the mall, Santa was there taking pictures, Christmas lights were shining bright and people had on their Santa hats. It really got me in a festive mood that now I feel like calling some of my friends over, watching some classic Christmas movies, eating cookies and building gingerbread man houses. Speaking of gingerbread man houses, I need to go and pick up a kit because for the past 3 years I’ve been talking about building one but whenever I go to the mall or store to buy one, it’s all sold out! I do go last minute so this year I made it a goal to grab one sooner! Anyways, so this time of the year is my favorite, well I actually love September all the way through February. No, I’m not a big fan of summer, crazy I know! I love when the weather starts to get chilly because then I have an excuse to wear my big furry boots, chunky sweaters with leggings and scarves! There were really good sales on sweaters but nothing excited me, even at Sephora and I love Sephora! I went in to actually buy something because I had a 50$ gift card from my sister but seriously there was nothing new that I liked. I literally went up, down and around the mall looking for something to buy because I had three gift cards but it shocks me too that I couldn’t find anything worth buying! I was not even in the mood to have Starbucks and I love Starbucks! However today was a really good day, I’m glad I went out because today I realized that I am not the same person as I was before, in a good way. As I was walking around the mall, I noticed that sometimes my back and legs would feel weak which gave me difficulties in walking straight. I had to take breaks to sit down because my legs and back were hurting. I was just not walking properly today and I don’t care! If this was me five years ago, I would leave the mall, turn back home and feel sorry for my self, also perhaps not leave my house ever again! I would also cry a lot. But today, I was a true champion! I felt pain, sat down, got back up, walked however I felt like walking, did not care about who thought what of me and left the mall feeling like a boss! I was so proud of myself. I learned that I no longer care about what people think of me and that is the biggest accomplishment of my life. I was always so scared about what people were thinking about me and that really caused a tremendous amount of destruction in my life so I am happy that I over came that. It felt as if this big burden had been lifted off my shoulders and I was a free little bird who was allowed to do anything she wanted to do. I no longer felt caged and it was the best feeling I have felt in years. I’m not going to get into it too much on this post but keep a look out for my next post on this topic because I will break it down for you all. I hope you liked reading about my day at the mall, good bye for now!


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